by legolas little angel

                              chapter 2

                            Alianna' s pain

 

I woke with a fright, beads of sweat upon my brow; brushing them away, I looked around the empty room. Kai must have left with Elessar, leaving me to rest yet again. I pulled my feet out from under the covers, stepped onto the cold floor and Slowly made my way over to the door. My limbs felt nimble again, but still I lacked my voice; the one thing I wished I had.

Looking behind me, I saw the one person I had not expected to see. Setsuna had come to visit me, though I could not say I was too happy to see her. A permanent frown was adorned to my face. I stood there, watching the Time Guardian very closely. Her eyes were filled with tears, and she, like me, was suffering alone. Tears began to fall from my eyes, and I can do nothing to stop them from falling.

She held me close, trying to bring comfort to my aching soul that finds no comfort. The tears fall, one after another, from my eyes as I burry my head into Setsunas chest. I looked into her eyes, showing the only way I could, that more than anything else; I wanted to be with my mother, and my father; to feel their love again, to hear their voices.

I know you miss your family Alianna, but your mother will always be with you in your heart as long as you remember what she taught you, and all she did with you. She said kindly to me, though it brought only pain to my heart.

I wanted to scream, to run away from it all. Every mention of my mother brings a new wave of anger, and pain. I take a step away from Setsuna, and look around the bright room. A cool breeze blows in through the open window, as the beautiful songs of birds fill the room.

I turn to leave; I wish not to be in the room any longer. Behind me now stands the door, and in front of it, is Kai. A smile plays on her face, for she is glad to see me up and about, but I do not return her smile. She places her hand gently on my arm and whispers in my ear. I tried to pull away, but nothing seemed to help. I was trapped with people that only wanted me happy; when all I wanted was to be alone, to cry, and then join my mother in her afterlife.

Kai took me by the hands, and led me towards the large tower, where she had been while I rested. I did not wish to go, but followed along like the pathetic child that I was. Even the beauty of the walls, and gardens did not bring joy to me, for the world was darkened to me. The world was bleak and desolate; there was no happiness that I could see. Though, too the normal eye the world was filled with peace.

We entered a quite room, where I found King Elessar sitting quietly on a throne. There was a women sitting next to him, who shared the same hair colour as me, though her eyes were not saddened with the death of my mother. She smiles at us, but only Setsuna and Kai return her smile.

Welcome to Minas Tirith Alianna Tomoe Aragorn welcomed me.

I stood quite watching him for a moment, not like I could answer him if I wanted too. I dont think they understood me too well about that, I mean how many people did you meet that were mutes? Not many, even in Tokyo City. But here, in Middle-Earth, I think they found less people that could not talk.

It was Setsuna who seemed to have the most words with Aragorn. I wasnt paying much attention to them, because I really didnt want to hear what they had to say to each other. I was sure it was only about what my mom did and me. I really wish they would just let me be alone. Thats all I want.

It was Arwen who snapped my attention back to their conversation. She was the one that mentioned my father. But it pained me to know that no one knew where he was. How was I supposed to find him, if no one knew where he was? This was such a stupid task to have set up for me. Setsuna should have just left me in the hospital where I could have withered away into nothingness and passed into shadow. But she didnt, she brought me to this retched place.

Drifting off to my own little world, I began to forget where I was, who I was, and the pain that I felt. This time I was half paying attention to their conversation, which was still on me, and why Kai and I were sent here. Like I care, all I want to do is go home and die. I have nothing here, and nothing there. I am just some mistake that should never have happened.

Stop it! Just stop it! All they keep doing is talking about my mother as if she was some morbid hideous creature, who thought of no one but herself. It was his fault not hers; I wouldnt blame anyone but my father. He was the one that left her on the beach like that; I saw him, he didnt care then, and he wont care now. The tears are burning my eyes, but I cant do anything to stop them from falling. They burn my skin as the roll down my cheeks. Make them stop please I cry to myself from within my horrible cell of certain death.

I wanted to run. Run away from them, to make the pain stop. A new wave of darkness swept over me as Setsuna said she was leaving. I didnt want her too; she was all I had. But I watched as the Time Gates opened, and she walked through, leaving me alone in the retched world of despair. She left me! I wanted to scream, I fell to the ground in tears, which clouded my vision. 

Falling, thats what I was doing, falling further into the endless pits of unforgettable despair. I felt light headed, soon the world faded from around my eyes, and I was again in a restless world of unseen sorrows. I was moved from the Throne Room over to a comfortable bedroom out of the House of Healing. But it didnt matter where I was, I wasnt moving, speaking, eating. All I did was cry, and sleep. I began to feel my life energy fading from my weak body. I was getting my wish; in time, I would join my mother in her pit of endless torment.